Wednesday, 2 April 2014

Old House, In Our Heart

After four years living in our first family home, we finally moved. Our old little home will always have a place in this heart.

 


It was where I spent my first pregnancy - those long lazy summer days reading my books from our hammock - where two newborns eventually joined us on this journey, the walls witnessing their first steps, first laughs, first screams. Where doors were slammed and messes were made, where our cats first caught their glimpse of freedom after a year of apartment living; an apricot tree to climb and mice to catch!

Where we listened to the rain pound heavily on the roof, enjoyed the suns rays paint patterns on the walls at certain times of the day, where paint may have crumbled and doors squeaked and our kitchen
may only have had the space for two but it was there where we grew as a family and became Us.


Living in this humble house made me appreciate so much more. We now live in a much more modern, spacious ground-floor apartment with lots of outdoor space for the kids but I will miss our little red brick house where it all began.

As Maia tells me every day" ....but I miss our old house and my little room..can we go there..but tomorrow, not today?"

Some day we will take a walk and reminisce....

Memories....what a gift. x



Wednesday, 26 March 2014

Appreciation

It's been awhile. Life sometimes decides to throw a collection of big events right at you leaving you spinning somewhat and unsure of where to start. A headless chicken. That has been me. I still am  in fact but I have found a tiny window of time to blog today and so here I sit with words in my head; a thousand words, thoughts, ideas and ponderings.

I was thinking about appreciation and gratitude today and how important these feelings are; paving the way for a happier life. Many people are so unaware of the amazingness of life that surrounds them on a daily basis. They have lost touch with what is truly real and what counts. I believe they are powerful emotions that attract good in your lives.

We finally moved house last week and it's still all a little surreal not to be living there anymore. Our old house that was our first family home, small, cosy, but a little rustic and in drastic need of a make over. But it was ours and where we lay our first family memories, pregnancies, newborns cries, first crawls, first laughters, first words, first sibling kiss, first sibling fights...it's where it was all going on and will be close to my heart always.

I always appreciated where we lived in the humblest of ways, we didn't have the modern kitchen, the spacious living room, the extra closet space but I did always try and appreciate what we did have. Our garden albeit small, the apricot tree, a room for each of the kids, my own office. We were lucky even if it wasn't the prettiest house around. But now, we find ourselves in a beautiful large apartment and again I am so appreciative of life and of where we are now. The kids now have sooo much garden space to run wild in, countless trees (of different species) to climb, flowers and bushes to hide in, green grass to lie in, hills to roll down, a small square where they can ride their bikes, a park to swing in, it couldn't be any more perfect. And I could not be any more thankful!

So here we are, our lovely new home; the cats have finally settled after being locked up for 3 days. They were set loose to explore and by the end of the day happily found their own sunshine spot to curl up in...

The kids are still so exited about their new surroundings, running around, screaming joyfully, still exploring the new new corners of their rooms...

Life is an adventure! Enjoy every phase of it, appreciate it all, no matter how "little" you feel you have...


Friday, 28 February 2014

My new website

I now have a new website for my photography which can be viewed here:

www.sibyllamichelle.com

Please check it out! The layout is cleaner and showcases my photography more beautifully than my previous one. Here's hoping 2014 will be as good or better than 2013. I have an early morning photo shoot tomorrow morning to get ready for now..

Hugs

Wednesday, 12 February 2014

Deep in Love

It was only six years ago when I first met him. The smile that said it all; ease, comfort, optimism. Our hands entwined as we walked through the city of spires, the beginning of the beginning. The waking up from what was. The subtle knowing of the road ahead.







Fast forward and here we are, far from the cold English city now, from beginnings, far from the first flickering of love. Now we find ourselves stronger than ever before. Co-creating the life that had always made sense to us. We are parents. We are a family. We are strong, safe, deep. In. Love.

Happy Valentines. x

Tuesday, 28 January 2014

A Quiet Start

It's been a long time. I know, I know. But the last three months have also been true mayhem for me. Photo shoot after photo shoot, which of course was a great thing but it also left me feeling very exhausted, then came pre-planning for Christmas, New Year, holidays, the change that came about with husbands new job, potentially moving house, as you can see I had a lot on my plate...

But we now find ourselves in the quiet of the Chilean summer, the sun as hot as ever, the streets are bare(r), but work has dried up a little ...it's a bit of an anti climax to be honest. I haven't seen friends for a while either and am going through a bit of a lonely period. But that's what it is, a period, one to be expected now and again. It's also giving me time to refresh my inner self a little more. No rushing around, or rather not as much as these last few months and it feels good. To just be able to sit down without having to frantically plan or worry about something. And instead of sitting at the computer like I did pretty much constantly these last few months, I am spending more time with the kids and husband. It's nice really...it's good to get away from it all. You can then jump straight back in, batteries charged, creativity ready to explode...

A very good friend of mine is leaving in March and I've been feeling quite sad about that. It's not every day you meet someone you can just totally be yourself with. Her and her husband are amazing people with such gigantic hearts and it really breaks mine to see them leave. But you can't expect more from expat life, the comings and goings are very much the norm.  But this girl is someone I feel very comfortable with, our kids get on so well, she is a wonderful spirit and there aren't many people like her around. I will miss her a lot, I think more than even she knows.

And so we begin 2014 with a quiet start, but a well needed one, surrounded by family and the friends that matter.

Love as ever

T x


Tuesday, 12 November 2013

Happiness...

I get such satisfaction when I receive messages like this. So happy!

"I LOVE them!!! Just what we wanted! Thank you so much. I hope to use you again when the kids get a little bigger!! You have such a gift. Thank you!"

Floating on my happy cloud!!

You know you're on the right track when what you do makes you (and others!) happy. Simples.

xx

Saturday, 9 November 2013

Becoming..Me.

Running my business has all of a sudden become incredibly full on. As Christmas approaches I have been receiving portrait bookings all week long. This is of course all very wonderful but it also means I don't get much time to be with the family on the weekends or with the hubby in the evenings as I am constantly busy dealing with a lot of admin work...I need a secretary! Who knew! I have come pretty far. It really has been an amazing last 12 months being my own boss and doing what I love and am so proud of where I am right now. Thank you little spark of inspiration, I am so glad I listened to you.

I have finally upgraded my camera and could not be more grateful for the 12 months my old camera has given me.  It's still going strong but it's time to get something a little faster and more Pro and use my old Canon as a backup. I will be getting a new portrait lens soon too. I want to keep focusing on this as I finally I feel I know where I'm supposed to be; this all just makes sense. I have craved for so long to delve into something artistic and here I am doing just that. How many people get to say they are truly doing what they love?? Sure there are times when I think I'm not making enough money and need that full time job whatever it is. But do I really want to go back there? Is that really me? Maybe one day I might not have the choice but right now, while we can (more or less) afford for me to stay at home with the kids and for me to run my own business in its early stages, well it feels blooming amazing. And I thank my husband for supporting us all throughout. He is my rock in so many ways. I hope you know how much I love you A.

There's a lot of competition out there I know, but I've not been feeling as intimidated about it as when I started out. With every passing experience the more confident and secure within myself I have been feeling about my work and future. I have created my own style. I have put a mark on my work. The Tamsin mark. It is me and mine alone. I have had an overwhelming response which to me has spoken volumes, and not just from friends and family but clients calling me up to tell me how much they loved my photos; and with every client, 2 or 3 new ones appear! I'm not making mega bucks but that's to be understood, my company is still a baby and I can only work on certain days but that's fine, to me just making a bit of extra money at the moment means so much. But I hope that starts to change soon as I concentrate more and more on this venture of mine. It is hard though of course.. still juggling life as a stay at home mother during the week and getting everything done that's associated with the responsibilities of a mother of two babes...cleaning, running errands, cooking, entertaining energetic little ones...sometimes it feels as though that part of my life is never ending but knowing that I have something else that is purely mine that I can work on in my own time, that is making me my own money,  helping me become better at what I do, developing so many new skills and of course becoming a true artist...  all on top of the demands of being a full time mum, well I think that's pretty amazing. Don't you? :)